The most painful month of the year

I recently lost my Grandmother who raised me, along with my Father. Now, both have passed and I feel more alone and depressed as ever:( Just as I am able to get a grip on my fathers passing. I lose my grandmother. Both of their birthdays are in July and with in a week of each other. It's been a terrible two weeks. I feel like letting go everyday and no one understands me and what I am going through!?!? PSO

Pretty Shitty Post

As I promise at least one post per week.

I know this isn't the type of post everyone was hoping for however it is that day of the year when my mind and body turn to mush.

I would of hoped by now being that it has been 2 years that the death of my father would become easier to handle his birthday. But it has not?!

And for some reason I can not understand why?  I think about him every single day, probably in fear that I will forget him, forget what he looked like......I'm not sure?

Whoever said "time heals all wounds" was not correct or if they are could send me an email as to when this sadness will pass I would be appreciative because Im waiting!

As I said last year, Nothing today is going to make me feel better.......I would appreciate this day to have to myself so that I can cherish the memories I have left by myself uninterrupted.

I'm sorry

Im extremely sorry 4 the lack of posts! I hope to start up again w/at least 1 per week starting next week:) I'm still out of work due to my 3rd reconstructive elbow surgery & hope to start therapy soon. I have become a twitter addict and hope to break the habit soon before I completely disappear from my blogger account completely! Be good & Have a Happy 4th of July! Be safe!