The most painful month of the year

I recently lost my Grandmother who raised me, along with my Father. Now, both have passed and I feel more alone and depressed as ever:( Just as I am able to get a grip on my fathers passing. I lose my grandmother. Both of their birthdays are in July and with in a week of each other. It's been a terrible two weeks. I feel like letting go everyday and no one understands me and what I am going through!?!? PSO