Did you really just ask that???

As many of you know, I had my left elbow completely reconstructed in January. It was pretty uncomfortable, to say the least! I had 4 c/sections-two were classical c/sections(I was cut up and down inside and out) and two nice little bikini cut c/sections. All 4 combined after surgery did not top the pain that one little surgery on my arm caused. I could sum it up on a scale of 1 to 10 as 100, yes, I know I sound like one of those crazy drug seeking patients, but really it was 100.

Maybe, it was due to the fact, I had my arm dislocated again, because in all seriousness it didn't hurt enough the first time, then they reset by bones, because even though they healed nicely the first time, they healed 1.5 inches away from each other, I got new ligaments from a cadaver because it turns out I had NO ligaments holding my arm in place. My favorite part of the surgery was all sorts of holes being drilled into my bones to suture the new ligament/tendons in place.....and I hate general anesthesia so I asked to be happily confused during the surgery until after they dislocated my arm I definitely remember screaming something like M-fer.....

A quick little public service announce- Never, Never Fall on Outstretched hands!!

Which finally brings me to: What did my kids say today? I have another follow up appointment in the am with Ortho.

1. Mom is that Dr. who always tries to pull out your arm of it's socket going try it again tomorrow?

2. Does the doctor actually know the dead guy who's ligaments/tendons you have?

3. Doesn't your new arm gave like a 5 year warranty?

I.love.my.kids!!!

What were my last few days of work like?

So, What were my last few days of work like...?

Exhausting to say the least!

Day, one started with a ...a...aaaa " slow", yikes...night...gosh, I do not like to say that word---EVER!

Day Two, ....yup, ..you said it "busy!" See, I opened my Big Mouth!

I met this lovely, lovely family from down South. The family was told some very interesting news, totally wrong, but very interesting and god knows, they were told, there was, "Hope."

So, there they were in the waiting room prior to me going home, did you ever get that feeling that when you come back into work that night it would be crappy????!

So, there I was coming into work, the Unit filled with tears..etc, etc.....

The Family was scheduled for a C/Section in the am, one baby VERY, VERY sick the other, Not Compatible with Life.

I stayed for the section, I thought it would be an opportunity........why not, I probably will not see anything like it again, or now at least I hope I never will. It was the wrong thing to do because now it has been a few days, and my heart aches for that family and for that little baby.

Oh yeah, don't let me forget the mother had a positive UDS, for more drugs than we could account for...Ggrrrhhhh!!!! I'm sure it had nothing to do with what happened to that little one, but it pisses me off to know end that maybe she will take home the other one, if everything goes well. I hate to think that baby does not stand a chance after everything it will go through!

The next day,..next family...different circumstances, same outcome, only one baby...S*&^!

The next family--Great News, totally expecting something Horrid, and Everything is Well, ..."Normal?"

Is there, "HOPE?" Who Knows?????