Don't look!

Oh Lord! That is all I have to say....it was so strange! You know, when you shouldn't look, but you can't help yourself, mostly for curiosity sakes...well now I wish I had not.........

thank you

There are so many days that I question myself, if I should continue on with my new job....because it has been the most emotionally challenging job I have ever held.

As soon as I decide, tonight is going to be the end of it...I will officially request a transfer, something big happens at work and I change my mind.

Saturday night- shift was one of those days...I decided that I will call Human Resources on Monday and beg for a transfer.

Then I was told by another RN to check my mailbox.....in my mailbox I found a lovely card from a patient and her family...thanking me for all of the time and emotional support I gave them, during the lose of their infant, along with gifts.

It is something we as Rn's do got see often enough, or if ever, and then it reminds me why I choose nursing as a career in the first place.

Looks like I'll be staying a little while longer.

After all, "Hope Lives Here"!

Sunday Stealing

Sunday Stealing: The Q & A Meme
1. where is your significant other? In Bed
2. your favorite thing? My iPod
3. your dream last night? I just got home from working night-shift-I guess I can fill this in later:)
4. your goal? To be happy
5. your hobby? Running the kids around to events, reading when able and sleeping.
6. where do you want to be in 6 years? Not at my current job!
7. where were you last night? In the hospital, monitoring a VERY sick mother and baby, the baby has a horrible diagnosis and I'm sure they have NO idea how bad it really is going to be after the little one is born.
8. what you're not? Happy with my new job, it has been almost a year and I'm ready to leave...I think we are playing God, some things are not/ or should not be in our power to change..
9. one of your wish list items? To work the least amount of hours and make the most money possible so I can spend time with my children.
10. your pet? He is a cute little Hamster, named Mousetracks.
11. missing someone? I'm missing the Foo Fighters
12. your car? a minivan
13. something you're not wearing? Normal clothes, still in my scrubs
14. love someone? Yup
15. when is the last time you laughed? At work this morning while giving report.
16. last time you cried? Last night with my patient, when we told her we my have to do an emergency c-section, her baby is very little and very sick, I at least made it out of the room before I started to cry for them.
17. favorite past time? Sleeping
18. are you a hater or a lover? Lover
19. any vices?
20. favorite meme other than Sunday Stealing? Can't spell DVM, she and Dr. May B. Insane are great.

Sunday Stealing

Today we ripped this meme off a blogger called Adrienne J. from Definitely Not Technical Writing. She said that she swiped the meme via her husband and his sister. But, it was probably stolen at that blog as well. But that is as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Link back to us at Sunday Stealing! Cheers to all us thieves!

1. What is your occupation right now? Mother of 4, personal healer, homemaker, cook, professional driver and taxi, preparation H wearer since 1998 and oh, yes a Registered Nurse.
2. What color are your socks right now? Red and white stripped Christmas socks
3. What are you listening to right now? The Grammy's
4. Last person you spoke to on the phone. Myself, I was trying to locate my cell phone, God I have a sexy voice!
5. How old are you today? 29 again
6. What is your favorite sport to watch on TV? Football
7. What is your favorite drink? It depends on the time of day
8. Have you ever dyed your hair? Of course I have I'm a woman
9. Favorite food? Anything salty and of course anything chocolate too.
10. What is the last movie you watched? 21
11. Favorite day of the year? Thanksgiving
12. How do you vent anger? I f...ing curse
13. What was your favorite toy as a child? My Spirograph
14. Living arrangements? I live with the Other Half, 4 small little ones and one cute hamster.
15. What was the last thing that you cried about? Losing another baby on our unit, Life sucks sometimes.
16. Who is the friend you have had the longest? My Mother
17. What did you do last night? I worked a 12 hour night shift.
18. What are you most afraid of? Losing someone closest to me.
19. In how many areas of your country have you lived? 3
20. What is your favorite flower? Daffodils, they look happy to me!

what are your thoughts?

Opinions are like assholes...everyone has one and everybody thinks theirs does not stink!

Pretty much wraps up my weekend at work.........

Purple

sunday stealing

Today we ripped this meme off a blogger called Johnny at Cannon Fodder. He explains that it was taken from Paterson si. But, it was probably stolen at that blog as well. But that is as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Link back to us at Sunday Stealing!Cheers to all us thieves!


Sunday Stealing: The Super Sunday Stealing Meme
1) What was your dream growing up? I had a dream to either be a Vet or a Nurse, unfortunately every time when I go to work I think I picked the wrong profession...Animals are way cooler than most human beings these days!

2) What talent do you wish you had? To have a glimpse of the future, but not to far ahead.......that way I can not only tell the patient how much longer until there baby is born, but the sex too.........because my crystal ball really sucks, it's like Very Very old from nursing school! Good Grief!

3) If I bought you a drink what would it be? Southern and Orange Juice/ Southern and Coke, whatever....I'll take it on the Rocks! Thank You

4) What was the last book you read? Breaking Dawn, yes I have finished all 4 books took me 7 days.

5) Worst Habit? Absolutely all the bad language that seems to slip off my tongue.

6) If you saw me walking down the street would you offer me a ride? Sure, but would you get in? Four kids under the age of 10, three child car seats, one mini-van, One extremely stressed out mother--- no-where to sit but in the "way back", between the two oldest because the front seat next to me is completely cover in all of their sporting stuff, backpacks, drinks, food etc...
But don't worry since the other half is a fire-fighter I'll throw you some ear-plugs, it will help drowned out all of their questions like, who are you? where do you live?, where are we taking you?, do you know my mom? is she your friend? Do you want to be my friend?
I'll bet you wouldn't last a full block!!!!

7) What is your favorite sport? Synchronized swimming

8) What would you do if you were stuck in an elevator with me? Seriously, I have no idea...I hate elevators, especially the idea of being stuck in one. I'm pretty sure I would faint. Conversation over.

9) Worst thing to ever happen to you? From what I was told coding during my last c-section should count, but honestly I do not remember that...thank god!

10) Tell me one weird fact about you. I always wanted 8 children.

11) What if I showed up at your house unexpectedly? Great! Someone to watch the kids...I'll be back in a few hours, don't wait up and by the way U ROCK!

12) If you could change one thing about how you look, what would it be? I would like longer legs

13) Would you be my crime partner or my conscience? Your partner, I could go for a few nights rest in a jail cell, with someone else cooking three meals a day for me, and the silence would be golden:)))

14) Ever been arrested? I'm pleading the fifth.

15) If you won $10,000 today, what would you do with it? Save a little, spend alot, take the kiddo's on an amazing vacation.

16) Favorite thing to do in your spare time? Sleep

17) Biggest pet peeve? I don't have one right now, I swear I'm too tired.

18) In one word, how would you describe yourself? Please see number #17.

19) Do you believe in/appreciate romance? Sure, I think everyone does.

20) Who wins today: Arizona or Pittsburgh? PITT of course.

don't have to much to say!

Sorry I have not been able to write much, complete writers block to say the least.

I'm not writing much about nursing anymore because work is way to depressing, when you work for one of the only hospitals that does fetal surgery/treatment, it completly sucks!

I need to transfer to another department before I lose my mind and go Ape Shit at work one day soon.

Plus, I finally found the Twilight series..........hopefully I will finish book four by the end of this long weekend ahead of me, I am scheduled for the entire weekend for night shift.

More to come....at least I hope!

Sunday Stealing

Today we ripped off TWO memes and made them one! The first five questions are stolen from blogger Emily Rosenbaum at Wheels on a Bus. She explains she grabbed it from Lola's blog, and since Lola "is the sassiest of mamas" Emily titled the meme as The Sassiest Meme. So that's the story of today's title. The final five questions were ripped from Midlife Mama from the blog Midlife Musings. She stole it from her "dear friend" over at Midlife Slices where it was originally written. So, it is almost a virgin meme. Link back to us at Sunday Stealing! Cheers to all us thieves! Sunday Stealing: The Sassy Meme

1. If you could say anything you wanted to say to George Bush, what would you say? Good-Freaking Bye, don't let the door hit you on your ass on the way out!

2. If you had to be the mother of Britney Spears or Lindsay Lohan, who would you choose and why? Goodness, now that is a hard one, but I think I'd have to go with Britney.

3. You get to be Queen for a day. The kids are all taken care of, and you can spend as much money as you want. What do you do all day? Take a very long nap, I would imagine I would sleep very well because no one would be waking me up to ask any questions, then I would take a long drive in my new hybrid SUV to the spa for a deep massage, manicure, wax, hair cut etc.... then off to a romantic dinner with the The Other Half with no one else there but the Foo's playing our favorite songs after dinner and then getting hammered with Dave Grohl and Taylor afterwards, and the best part NO-hangover the following morning!

4. Is there a song that brings tears to your eyes every time you hear it? If so, which one? Daddy's Little Girl, especially at weddings-it gets me every time.

5. A fairy taps you on the shoulder and tells you that you can either have a perfect face or a perfect body for the rest of your life. Which do you choose? Definitely the Body, I have a personal reason why, but that is for another time.

6. If you could live any place in the world and money was no object, where would you live and why? We recently traveled to Southern California and I would love to move somewhere warmer...even though I have always loved the cold winter months for some reason this year has be hard for me on the East Coast and if money was no object we could visit the East Coast for the holidays.

7. What is your biggest regret in life? Just not listening to my Parents and Grandmother.

8. If you could go back and visit one person in your life who is now dead, and ask one question, what would that question be and why would you ask it? My Aunt Kathy died when I was 5 in a terrible car accident. I was at my Grandmothers home the night it happened when the police took us to the hospital. I would love to know exactly what happened that night, the reason why etc..... The accident occurred over 30 years ago, I feel as if there has never been proper closure.

9. If you had the choice to age forward (like we are now) or aging backwards (think Benjamin Buttons) which would you choose and why? Forward

10. What will the epitaph on your headstone say? Wonderful Wife and Mother

Sunday Stealing

Today we ripped this meme off a blogger called Woozie at Tome of Communism. He explains that he's 18, not a communist and obviously he uses a rather unusual avatar. We aren't doing anything but stealing the meme. Woozie admits he stole this meme, but doesn't say from where. But, it was probably stolen at that blog as well. But that is as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time.

Sunday Stealing: The Cannon Fodder Meme

1. Is there someone you'd like to be kissing right now? Absoultely, but if you read my blogs, I do not kiss and tell, sorry, you will have to use your imagination.

2. When you're being extremely quiet, what does it mean? That I'm sleeping other than that I'm loud very loud.

3. What are you listening to right now? The humming of the computer- everyone is sleeping it is 0406.

4. Are you a big fan of thunderstorms? Yup, especially at work...I love when the back-up generator does not kick in right away and then you run around in the unit trying to bag afew patients at once....talk about a good time!

5. Do you believe in perfect? A perfect what?

6. Are you a jealous person? No

7. What was the first thing you thought this morning? It that a.m. or p.m....working night shift freaking blows!

8. What do you think about when you are falling asleep? I try to think, "happy thoughts", which usually leads me to all the stuff I have to do or how much sleep I'm not going to actually get because I have to go back to work in a few hours, start homework or pick up the kids etc.....

9. Are you satisfied with what you have in life? At times I'm very happy

10. Do people ever think that you're either older or younger than you actually are? Younger, at least that is what people tell me.

11. Do you think men truly understand women? Hahaaaaaa

12. How about women understanding men? No

13. Did anybody ever call you handsome or beautiful? Handsome, no...beautiful, yes, but only by the people who love me the most!

14. What is one fact about the last person that called you? He is an amazing kid, if I do say so.

15. Other than your current one, what’s the longest relationship you have had? I dated a guy for about 1.5 years senior year in high school, I just learned on facebook he is divorced, no surprise at that information!

Saturday 9

Welcome to Saturday: 9 . What we've committed to our readers is that we will post 9 questions every Saturday. Sometimes the post will have a theme, and at other times the questions will be totally unrelated. Those weeks we do "random questions," so-to-speak. We encourage you to visit other participants posts and leave a comment. Because we don't have any rules, it is your choice. We hate rules. We love memes, however, and here is today's meme!

Saturday 9: The First Apartment

1. Where had you moved from? I moved from my home living with my Father.

2. Describe your first apartment. Beige walls, beige carpets, beige kitchen and a white/beige bathroom-it was depressing now that I think about it, but it was ALL mine!!

3. How old were you when you had your apartment? 24 years young

4. Did you have roommates? Yes, Jameson-a black lab puppy, who ripped the place apart! He managed to chew every corner of the brand new rug up in each of the rooms and to make the rectangle coffee table into an oval looking thing, it sort of looked like a coffee table after he was done......And the Other Half who was not officially The Other Half yet, he spent a lot of time at the apartment with me.

5. What was your place of employment then? I had my first job as an RN, I was living 70 miles from my job and decided to move to that apartment, it cut down the commute to 45 minutes to an hour-one way---Gosh, I was crazy back then!!!

6. How were you finances at the time? Horrible to say the least! I got engaged, I was living at home for close to nothing, thought it would be cool to be on my own, working full-time with a hefty commute trying to save money, plan a wedding and raise a puppy and pay my student loans, by the way I'm still paying them off!!

7. Tell us about a lover who spent a night there. Sorry, I don't kiss and tell.

8. Tell us about a band you listen to then. (You can cheat. Look it up.) Nirvana, of course, Collective Soul, Candlebox, Oasis, NIN, and RHCP's.

9. How long did you live there and why did you move from there? I lived there for about a year before The Other Half and I made it official we would buy a home together and live in sin, one year before before tying the knot! I'm sure my parents were very proud!!!

Happy Birthday Grohl!

Okay, for those who do not already know...I sorta-like the Foo Fighters.

And on that note, today is Dave Grohl's 40th Birthday,...Gosh, where the heck has the time gone?

Stop over at Sweet Paramania and check out of some of the birthday wishes and stories. These pictures are from Leecy with the help of her friend Kevin.

Sunday Stealing on an early tuesday morning

Today we ripped this meme off a blogger called Kat (It was Kat who named this meme: The Hardest Meme Ever.), at 3 Bedroom Bungalow. She explains that Jim over at Irregularly Periodic Ruminations tagged her for it. But, it was probably stolen at that blog as well. But that is as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Link back to us at Sunday Stealing! Cheers to all us thieves!

Sunday Stealing: The Hardest Meme Ever
1. What is the bravest thing that you feel you've ever done physically? 4, yes 4 c-sections, two classical and two low transverse, OUCH!
2. What is the bravest thing that you feel you've ever done emotionally? Let someone go
3. What one talent do you wish you had that you don't? To be able to play the piano well.
4. If you had that talent what would you be doing with it? Hopefully making millions from being able to play the piano well and of course beautiful music.
5. We all have our reasons for blogging but what would be your ultimate goal for your blog or as a blogger? Stress relief
6. What advice would you give a new blogger? Write for yourself and no-one else.
7. Who are you three favorite blogs to visit (Yes, you can have ties and name more than three.) I do not play favorites
8. You can trade lives with any one person for a month. Who would it be and why? I would like to trade a month with one of the Dr.'s I work with....he is way to smart.....while he was in school getting smart, I was at rock concerts losing my hearing....so I'm curious...is it me or does he possess bionic hearing too, because I can never hear what the f&^% he is saying, either he needs to speak up or take the crap out of his mouth!!
9. There's a fire and your family is safe but you have the chance to save any one item from your house. What would it be and why? I would run back and take the pictures of the family with me.
10. You have the chance to go back in time and warn yourself before making a bad choice. What choice would it be and what would you tell yourself? All of our choices are learning experiences, but one thing that sticks in my head is from my father...."You are not going to only marry him, but his family too!" But even if I had heard him loud and clear, I would never have changed a thing! I have learned to agree with the Other Half's family, nod the head, smile and say, "Yup, your absolutely right", and then do whatever the hell you wanted to anyway:)))))

i'm leaving on a jet plane...don't know when I'll be back again

Yeah, I wish! Our schedule at work is packed...to say the least. Way to many inductions, surgeries and procedures. I'm picking up an extra shift, so I'll be out of commission of a few days......constantly in a hallucinogenic haze, trying to recover from night-shift!

Sunday Stealing

Today we ripped this meme off a blogger called Fatma at A Magnificant Life. She said she got the idea from Genie who got it from Danette. But, it was probably stolen at that blog as well. But that is as far as we go.

1. Looking back on 2008, what might your theme song have been? DOA-Foo Fighters
2. If 2008 was a movie, who would play you? I would play myself
3. What was your greatest gift of 2008? My family
4. What is your New Year Resolution, or, what are you committing to this year? Being the best Mother I can be!
5. If January could be represented by one song, what would it be? Dazed and Confused-by Led Zeppelin
6. What do you wish for your body in 2009? I would be very toned and trim, and be a size - 2.(only kidding)
7. Name one new thing you would love to try in the New Year. To learn to play the piano.
8. What do you long for 2009 to bring? Health and Happiness, and some extra cash would not hurt either! I will look forward to calling out of work rich, instead of sick.
9. If that happened, how would you feel? Very healthy, very happy and very rich, of course.
10. Where would you love to vacation in 2009 if money were no object? I would like to travel back to Tahiti with the entire family and with a Nanny to keep the children busy.
11. What would you like the theme of 2009 to be? For everyone in my family to be healthy and happy.
12. If 2009 was a book, and the title was 5 words or less, what might the title be? From this day forward........

Have some freaking respect!

Okay, if your, "Baby Momma", is in labor and you and your ten hundred other family members are in the room to help support her, PLEASE do not sit at her bedside eating freaking McDonald's, and or any other foods while she is in labor ----and you have been told a few times she is only allowed ice chips. Then you and your entourage come back with all that horrible food and she tells you that the smell is making her sick and she starts to throw up........That is when, I consider it YOUR job to clean up the mess!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Good Lord, grow up, think of her instead of yourself!

some ramblings

First, Happy New Year to All who read!!

I am recovering from my "Fake Day Off", yes, I came home this am from work and have been functioning in some sort of hallucinogenic haze most of the day.

Today, I was thinking about many things....The New Year, #4's Birthday- which is today-my baby will turn 3, and the fact I am having Catholic guilt and really should go to Church....you see, I had a very rare medical condition with that pregnancy and after the delivery became a great part of medical books and part of national conferences.....pretty much sums up, I'm very lucky to be alive and even though right now it seems to me like a long time ago....to my family it was like yesterday, especially to the other half....so thank you, to all of the wonderful Maternal-Fetal Doctors, Anesthesiologists, Trauma Surgeons and Oncologists, etc....who have given me another wonderful year to spend with my family.

Merry Christmas from the Foo Fighters

Send your own ElfYourself eCards

Triage

Please do not come into be triaged with the following complaints..........

I am tired, I feel phat, my feets is big and stinky!!

Your pregnant for god sakes, for the 100th time....did you not notice with pregnancy 90 through 99, that you are fat because your pregnant, let alone tired because of the same reason.....as for your feet, yup, they are big,(try getting off of them a few hour a day), and Good Lord they did stink! Now go home and rest!

Last Night

Last night really was a bad night at work to say the least! I do not know what it is about the month of December and losing babies. Maybe it is because this month is usually regarded as a, "happy/holy" month? Mother and Fathers are so excited to deliver, knowing that their little one(s) will be getting the best of care our hospital can offer, after all........ "hope lives here". But, last night my mother delivered twins, both stillborns, full term. They looked absolutely perfect in every way. The loss was devastating and I am still numb.

Sunday Stealing

Today we ripped this meme off a blogger called Christina from Call Me Patsy She states that she lifted the meme that "she's seen everyone doing". Not us however, until today. It was probably stolen by the author of that blog, as well. But that is as far as we go. Tracing back our theft's thieves might take some time. Link back to us at Sunday Stealing! Cheers to all us thieves! Sunday Stealing: The TV Meme

1. Name a TV show series in which you have seen every episode at least twice: Gilligan's Island

2. Name a show you can't miss: NCIS

3. Name an actor that would make you more inclined to watch a show: Hugh Laurie

4. Name an actor who would make you less likely to watch a show: Arnold Schwarzenegger

5. Name a show you can, and do, quote from: House- EVERYONE LIES!!

6. Name a show you like that no one else enjoys: Any of the E! shows-100 best/worst dresses/actors/divorces etc..of all times.....

7. Name a TV show which you've been known to sing the theme song: Laverne and Shirley

8. Name a show you would recommend everyone to watch: House

9. Name a TV series you own: The Soprano's

10. Name an actor who launched his/her entertainment career in another medium, but has surprised you with his/her acting chops in television: Alec Baldwin

11. What is your favorite episode of your favorite series? House is House

12. Name a show you keep meaning to watch, but you just haven't gotten around to yet: 30 Rock and 24

13. Ever quit watching a show because it was so bad? Desperate Housewives

14. Name a show that's made you cry multiple times: Extreme Home Makeover

15. What do you eat when you watch TV? It depends on the time of day

16. How often do you watch TV? It depends on my work schedule, sometimes I do not watch any TV and sometimes I'll watch up to 4 hours

17. What's the last TV show you watched? NCIS-there is a marathon on right now

18. What's your favorite/preferred genre of TV? Crime Drama, News and Entertainment Shows

19. What was the first TV show you were obsessed with? Twin Peaks and the X-files

20. What TV show do you wish you never watched? Celebrity Rehab with Dr. Drew- because I've been hooked since season 1.

21. What's the weirdest show you enjoyed? Twin Peaks

22. What TV show scared you the most? I would have to say, there have been 3 shows that scared me from time to time, The Twilight Zone, The X-Files and Friday the 13th series.

23. What is the funniest TV show you have ever watched? Monk